So Heather, what makes your blog unique?
Well, it’s about the books I’m reading and what I like to read in general.
There are a lot of book blogs out there. That’s not really unique.
I’m going to write about other things as well… Like how my husband and I are on a mission to lose weight and live healthy lives.
Books and… weight loss??
Every time I re-read that I think about how those two topics don’t really mesh. It’s not like books and coffee or cooking and weight loss… or popcorn and mustard. If you don’t believe me on that last one, ask my best friend, Vanessa. It’s delicious.
In an attempt to blend the different things that make me, me I realized I couldn’t very well leave out this huge journey my husband and I are on right now. We recently joined The Camp. Some of you may have heard of it. If you’re my friend on Facebook, you’ve definitely heard of it or at least seen my morning check-ins, which are part of the program.
Normally when I’m on a diet or trying to lose weight (this has been about
70% 95% of my life) my friends probably know about it, but I’m not publicly posting about it online Every. Single. Day. Then people will know I’m fat. And heaven forbid that should happen… it’s not like they can actually see me! Can they? This has always been my thought process. Don’t talk about it and no one will know. Seems ridiculous right? Well it’s gotten me through 31 years of chunk, but it’s also kept me there.
In my mind, one day I was going to lose all the weight I’ve been wanting to lose for so long and then I would write/speak/sing/perform interpretive dances about my journey to blossoming like the lovely flower I am inside. But I’ve decided to take a different approach. I’ve read so many stories about how individuals went from fat-to-fit and now they are living their best lives, but it’s always post-jiggle. And I get that. You succeeded it’s a safe zone to talk to about your triumphs. But in the age of constant live feeds showing what’s going on now, Now, NOW!, what speaks most to me are not only the triumphs but the TRY and the UMPH that it took to get there as it’s happening.
Here’s my plan: At least once a week, I want to post about the process. I want to share my experience as it’s happening and give you access to my successes, failures, moments of weakness, and moments of strength. Not gonna lie, this is terrifying to me. My mind says, “Heather! Don’t do do this! Just write about books. People like books. People don’t like fat or failures. What if you fail? Again. Then everyone will know.” All of these are valid points, but in the process of deliberately practicing vulnerability, I am going to do it anyway. Because it might speak to someone. Anyone. There’s a whole, huge internet of people out there. Surely, I’m not the only person who has dealt with anxiety and stress and discouragement when it comes to being healthy. So if I can reach even one person who’s feeling the same way I am, that will be amazing. And if not, if this is all just a wonderful experiment in self-care and dealing with anxiety and fear of vulnerability, then so be it. I will embrace the process either way.